Breathing

I have found that breathing is a good thing. I had a wave of terror come over me when I figured out how much my school loans will end up costing me for this year alone. I have never been so scared in my entire life. God must a great sense of humor to put all of this on me. The funny thing is though, that I don't have to "carry" it. I just need to give up and give it over. I have a feeling that my going back to school has nothing to do with school, and all to do with my walk with Christ. I know I am a determined person, and all I want is what God wills, so in the end I know I will be ok, but you can't help but be terrified. I really want to go and lock myself up with God and talk with Him. I want to unload all of this and finally have peace. I have a tiny amount buried in my heart, but I want it to be overflowing. I would appreciate any encouragement right now from those close to me!!