Friday, August 24, 2007
Loneliness
Those of you who know me well, know that I struggle in this area. I love being at Marian, but I am sooo lonely. I eat pretty much every meal by myself, unless the girl down the hall and I happen to catch each other. Which has only happened 3 times. Then in class everyone pretty much has their own friends, so I feel like an outsider looking in. Make sense? People are nice and say hello, but trying to find your place isn't very easy. I am so shy that I won't approach people. I am self conscious and worry about what they will think of me. So I go find an empty table, eat, and go back to my room. The other strange thing is that no one on my floor, but 2 of us keep our doors open. Very strange. Usually people keep them open and visit. Not on this floor. Well enough of that.
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That's the story of my life 'til I met Ruth. It gets better with practice. You just make fewer, closer friends. The people with all the friends--often their relationships aren't as deep or meaningful, even though they have a lot of them. Doesn't make the lonely times less hard though. I'll share Ruth often as long as you take Nathaniel too, and let me get my schoolwork (okay, and some blogging...) done :-)
I have school work as well! Although, I am not accustomed to sitting around in one place all day. So I do feel a little stir crazy. Lol.
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